Al Fatihah to my dearest grandmother

Friday, June 3, 2011 - 1 Rejab 1432....8 years since Arwah nenek left us for good..
Al- Fatihah to my dear nenek who is very dear to my heart, who will always be a dear nenek to my siblings.

Semoga Allah mencucuri rahmat ke atasnya. Amin.

Teman Setia

No one else, but only him. He was there for me... sepanjang masa on my wedding day :) Rindu sangat dekat dia. Dah 2 tahun since the last time i met him. How are you my boy? " Haunty " miss you so much.....
1st person to be in my room.....
Pengkritik terhebat.....

Even duduk kat main table! tak pernah dibuat orang.....
Sedih sangat tak dapat duduk dekat main table.....

Told ya....sampai potong cake pun ade kepala dia. Nasib baik the first cake cutting dia takde......nak pegang tangan skali tu!
Some people thought that i dah ade anak. Kurang asam betul :(
Finally, my photo with friends pun budak kecik ade terselit jugak! He's everywhere :) but i don't mind at all. Dia tak pernah merasa semua ni before this and he was so excited on that day.

Yesterday my aunt told me that the last time he saw this boy, he asked my aunt " mane ibu? Ala' nak jumpa Ibu. Bile ibu dengan atuk nak ambik Ala'. Oh my god, rasa nak meleleh air mata dengar! Mesti dah lama dia tunggu we all ambik dia. Tak sangka Ala' still ingat dekat our family. I wish i can still be with him. Missing you so much botak boy :(

Setahun Berlalu

Masa berlalu terlalu pantas. Rasa seperti baru semalam arwah atuk pergi buat selama-lamanya. Hari ini genap setahun arwah pergi meninggalkan kami semua. Terasa rindu sangat pada arwah. Tiada lagi kedengaran suara arwah mengaji setiap hari menjelang subuh. Tiada lagi gelak ketawa arwah menyakat cucu cicitnya. Kenangan selama 28tahun bersama arwah akan terpahat di ingatan buat selama-lamanya.

Semoga arwah atuk ditempatkan bersama-sama umat islam yang soleh dan rohnya dicucuri rahmatmu ya Allah s.w.t.

Aidilfitri 2007, kenangan bersama arwah atuk buat kali terakhir.

Terasa terlalu rindu beraya disisinya di pagi Aidilfitri....

Dalam kenangan , Haji Hussein Bin Ibrahim ( 31 Julai 1923 - 8 Mac 2008 ). Al- Fatiha......

My Superhero

I watched The Dark Knight again the other day with hubby. Saje jer since boring takde buat ape and hubby brought back the projector, so syokk la dapat tgk movie and screen ala-ala besar gitu. Then suddenly teringat my little boy, my so called superhero in the house. Wow, rindu sangat dekat dia. The last time i met him about a year ago, in december kalau tak silap and then we sent him back to Kuantan. Balik ke tempat asal dia....even though dia tak suka, but we can't do anything about it. Luluh hati everytime we all dengar dia menangis nak ikut we all balik and refused to stay with his own family. Sedih sangat....I miss you Ala'....

He used to be my Batman, Spiderman, Ultraman, Power Ranger and u name it! But to bad, every time those movies keluar kat cinema, tak dapat nak bawak dia tengok. Like mase spiderman and batman keluar, he was with his family. I still remember i watched trailer Spiderman dekat tv and i asked " eh kenape spiderman tu warna hitam " and he said this " ...tu spiderman mase dia jadik jahat, mase dia baik dia warna merah.." i was shocked ok. Mane dia tau semua tu and dia belum tengok lagi movie tu and bukannya faham pun....pelik betul budak ni. Goshh....me & hubby rindu yang amat kat Ala'. Hopefully, dia cukup makan and he is in a good condition. Mungkin dia dah masuk darjah satu this coming January, maybela. Kalau betul, macam manelah agaknyer rupe Ala' pegi sekolah. Rindunyer kat bodak botak sorang ni : (

He's back!

yea..i'm happy! budak jepun dah balik. Rindu dekat budak sorang ni...at least i have him now to cheer me up. Can bring him out this weekend. I really need to go out ...so stress right now. Oh god! i can't sleep at night..then sakit kepala bila pagi and dok makan macam nak rak. Semua stress punye pasal! Can't wait to see him..! at least...i'll be happy and lupa daratan sekejap....Khai ! i can't wait to see you..!!

My 1st day of Raya

Selamat Hari Raya everyone! Maaf Zahir Batin....My Raya so far...
first time rasa kuih tart nenas made by my MIL,
walaupun rupe dia lain sikit....but not bad, nice!
chocolate cake kukus by my kid BIL
Makan semua pun takpe, yummy!
First time jugak rasa kuih makmur my MIL. So soft, takde kacang kat dalam. Different from what yg my auntie selalu buat.But i am not a big fan of kuih makmur, so tak kisah la. One thing for sure yg my MIL buat ni manis. My hati manis suke la. Nama pun hati manis ;P
First time ever beraya with my in-laws on the first day of Raya. But, i still rindu beraya with my family in JB. Rindu nak berbuka ramai-ramai during malam raya. Makan di meja panjang. I missed ketupat, kuah lodeh, ayam sambal, rendang daging, sambal goreng and etc. Pagi raya berebut nak gune toilet, dengar takbir from masjid kampung melayu majidee. Dulu belum kawin, sibuk tengok budak-budak lelaki berjalan pegi sembahyang raya! hehe...i missed that.

One thing for sure, i missed my pagi raya in JB. Rindu nak salam tangan arwah atuk. This is the first raya without him and dah 5 tahun raya without arwah nenek. I heard this year takde pun sesi bergambar di pagi raya. Sayu sangat dengar.....especially bila dengar takbir, tuhan sahaja yg tau, sayunya hati ini.

Selama 27 tahun beraya with my own family ( mostly in JB ), this is the first time ever me beraya with my new family...my in-laws. First time jugak i belajar makan rendang ayam cooked by my MIL. Pelik to me but nice and i am addicted to it. Menu for pagi raya dkt KL ni simple jer, nasi impit, kuah kacang and rendang ayam. Family my hati manis ni pun kecik aje, tak ramai so takdelah riuh sakan pagi raya. Aunties and uncles dia pun dah beraya dgn keluarga sendiri. But, i am ok with this situation. No matter what, i wanna go back to JB next year for Raya....hwaaaa..rindu woooo.

Luckily ade budak botak ni yang menceriakan suasana!

5 years since she left US

Hari ni genap 5 tahun since my nenek pergi meninggalkan kami semua. Rasanye macam baru lagi arwah pergi, but it's already 5 years. Rindu sangat dekat arwah, especially Ramadhan is just around the corner. Last night i couldn't sleep, i can still remember saat- saat terakhir arwah menghembuskan nafasnye. I was beside her during that time. Arwah pergi dengan tenang sekali. Syukur alhamdullillah, i managed to be next to her that night. Luckily mase tu i was on my college break. 2 weeks i was in JB just to look after her together with my aunties and uncles. She was 82, but i'm not sure age tu betul ke tak since my arwah nenek takde surat beranak. Her age dkt IC pun pakai agak-agak aje. Pity her : (

Arwah menghembuskan nafas terakhirnya pada 1.40 pagi ( Friday- August 29, 2003 ) bersamaan dengan 1 Rejab. Arwah disemadikan di Tanah Perkuburan Islam Kebun Teh, Johor Bahru. Dah lame rasanyer tak pegi menziarahi kubur my arwah atuk & nenek. The last time i managed to ziarah, that was in April this year. One month after my arwah atuk passed away.

I am totally sad...this year, this raya... i don't think i have the chance to ziarah kubur since I'll be celebrating my Raya with my in-laws in KL. I am so not looking forward for raya this year. My raya won't be the same like before. I'm going to miss my pagi raya in JB, arwah atuk must be orang pertama that i salam and cium. Rindu sangat bau both arwah. I know for sure, pagi raya i will cry and thinking about them and also my precious parents and siblings. This is the first time ever i'll be celebrating my raya without my own family eventhough i have my hubby and in-laws...but it won't be the same.

To all friends, hargailah & hayatilah Aidilfitri anda semua dgn. orang tersayang...kita takkan tahu that our next Aidilfitri takkan sama lagi dengan yang lepas. Yeah...i'm a bit emotional, what to do..thats me!

Al-fatihah...
Havoc family during Raya 2005

Lifehouse

Love it! from my hati manis to me....hehe : ) I'm touched!

Lontong

I had lontong for my breakfast today. Orang Johor sure tau what is lontong. Dah lame giler tak makan. Not sure why this morning when hati manis asked me nak makan ape and terus jawab lontong. I am a big fan of lontong actually. But not lontong that you can get in KL. Even the one that i had this morning pun tak sedap, but telan ajelah. Seriously, alangkah indahnyer dapat makan lontong from JB. Fuh....i missed that !

Then mase tunggu my hubby beli breakfast today, suddenly i teringat that lontong is my arwah atuk punyer favorite. Dulu, mase kecik-kecik..my arwah atuk yg slalu belikan breakfast for us especially mase cuti sekolah. Time cuti, most of us memenuhkan rumah nenek. Even we all dah besar and everytime balik JB, arwah mesti belikan we all breakfast. Ade lontong, nasi lemak, roti prata ( roti canai la kalau tak tau ) and macam macam la. Selagi dia kuat mase tu, selagi tu arwah akan belikan ape-ape aje yang we all boleh makan. He even said that " makan ni semua, kat KL tak sedap ". Betul tu! Hmmm...sedihnyer : (

Bile arwah dah mule sakit and dah tak kuat nak bawak kereta, my uncle sometimes bawak dia kluar for him to have his breakfast outside and just untuk arwah dapat makan lontong. It seems that, that's the only food yang arwah nak makan. Even my uncle akan belikan for him kalau dia tak sihat. Janji dia makan. Me myself, tak sure lagi bile lah agaknyer we all akan makan all the nicest food in JB that we can get especially kat kampung melayu. Now pun dah jarang balik JB. I really missed that, sampai jer that house...arwah nomally dah tunggu and so happy to see his smiling face to see cucu-cucu dia balik . The last time i went back there, rumah arwah rase kosong sangat and suram, even rumah tu sendiri nampak macam dah uzur sangat.

Today, genap 100 hari since he left us. He passed away in March this year. More story about arwah, you can read it here.
His body was buried just next to my grandmother's, his beloved wife, who passed away 5 years ago . Semoga Allah mencucuri rahmat ke atas roh kedua mereka dan di tempatkan bersama-sama umat islam yang soleh. Rindu sangat kedua arwah lately.... :(
Al-Fatihah....

Allahyarhamah Hjh. Roviyah Abd. Ghani & Allahyarham Hj. Hussein Ibrahim

Us with Arwah, Raye 2006

My malam berinai with him.

Last raya with anak-anak. JB 2007